"Stuck in Between"
I used to live in a house full of noise,
Laughter, chaos, the warmth of choice.
A big family where love was loud,
I’d find my peace among the crowd.
But then I left, to chase something more,
For studies, for dreams, what I was looking for.
Now I visit, and it feels so right,
Their laughter still dances in the night.
But here at home, it’s different, cold,
With my mom, it’s hard to hold,
A conversation, a bond, a smile,
We clash, and it stays that way for miles.
I’m not alone, yet I still feel lost,
I crave connection, but there’s a cost.
I want to speak, to share what’s inside,
But silence builds walls, too hard to hide.
I long to roam, to leave it all behind,
But I’m stuck here, tangled in my mind.
I want to do so much, but can’t break free,
The chance always feels out of reach for me.
Friends have faded, I stand on my own,
Not wanting to burden, or pick at the bone.
I don’t speak much, don’t want to add,
To the weight she carries, to make her feel bad.
I try to talk, but still feel small,
Overthinking it all, unsure where I’ve fallen.
Some nights, I wonder if the world would be better,
Without my pain, without this stormy weather.
But deep down, I know that’s not the truth,
Even when the weight feels far too much to move.
I don’t know what’s wrong, I don’t know what’s right,
But I’ll keep trying, and I’ll fight this fight.
Maybe one day, I’ll find my way,
Out of this silence, into the light of the day.
For now, I’m searching, I’m trying to see,
What’s waiting for me, and who I’ll be.