Life through my eyes

Personality quizzes. Novels. Poems. Games. Movies. Shows.

I’ve read, watched, played, and done so many of these, yet no
matter how many tests I took, poems I’ve read, point of views
and opinions I’ve heard, and lives I lived through characters, I
still have no concrete idea of what the meaning of life is. I think
that this is a topic that would forever remain concretely
undefinable. Its meaning is very subjective and changing. My
perception on life might not be the same as yours or the ones
around us, and what I think of life right now might not be how I
would think of it in the future, and not how I thought of it in the
past.

However, if I would try to think of life at

this exact moment I am writing this, I would say
that life for me is a fleeting moment that was
given to us for some unknown reason. I don’t
know why out of all things, we are the ones
here at this exact place, at this exact moment
of time. Out of all continents, countries, cities,
towns, and provinces, why are we right where
we are at this moment? Why, in the years and
centuries that have passed, are we given the
chance to live in this exact moment of time? On
an even larger scale, why are we even here?
What is the reason and what is our purpose? I
guess we will never really know, and maybe
that’s the beauty of it. We can interpret and
perceive it that way we want, if we want to see
the beauty or the crudeness of it or the in-
between.
 I would say that I am an in-between kind of
person. I want to try to understand and see all
sides of something. I don’t want to see the world in
black and white. I want to see it in all its colors. As
much as possible, I try to not have a biased
judgement on things just from my pre-conceived
Purple ideas about them. Having a close mind is like having
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a gate locked on your road to development. You can
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your stance on a subject without acknowledging,
considering, and trying to understand the other
sides of it. To add on, I would say I am a practical
person. I’ve had arguments with my older brother
because of this. He would do things that I think are
not practical in our situation and I berate him for it.
For instance, this one time when he cooked four
hotdogs and two eggs only for himself. I live in a
family of 8 people so for me this is a big deal. In the
amount of “ulam” he made, two more people in our
family could’ve also eaten. As the eldest daughter,
that was not a great thing for him to do as the
younger siblings would be envious of him and copy
On that same note, I am also frugal. I take a long time him.
thinking if something is very necessary that I need to buy
them, because money is hard to earn and save. Even now
when I told my mom a week ago that I was going to buy
some things online, I still haven’t ordered. I am still
thinking if those things are necessary enough for me to
spend money that I could otherwise use in the future for
more important stuff. Of course, all things that I do and
my mindset are all in moderation. I still find some leeway
for me to enjoy the other side of it, but still with great only
from time to time as I am currently not that privileged to
dwell on. I am also a person who doesn’t like exerting too
much energy, especially with unnecessary things because I
get drained easily. Due to this, I try to find the best
possible solution with the least amount of effort while still
having good results.
 An interesting fact about me is that I am a person who
loves peace and serenity. I love quiet nights, deep talks, art,
music, books, learning about myself, and other things that gives
me calmness. I crave these things, so much so, that I hate
conflicts. Not only do you get stress and turmoil inside because of
them, but you also have to exert energy in trying to resolve them.
Of course at some instances I know they are unavoidable, so I at
least try to lessen the impact that conflict would make to my
peace. Due to this, the way I see my life is mellow. I just follow
where the flow takes me. My every day is mundane and calm.
Conversing with people and going out is not really my cup of tea,
so I love to stay in the comfort of my home and doing things that
interests me. I am a very curious person. I love trying and
learning new things that peek my interest, which makes me have
experiences with them. Due to this, some people around me say
that I am talented. It bothers me because I only know how to do
things, but I’m not really great at them, so their praises just
gives me pressure in doing things well. I really don’t like it
because I like to do things by my own will, for my own enjoyment,
so now I tend to hide things from people unless really needed.

The way I am right now is brought by my experiences in life. The happy

moments, sad moments, problems, issues, and traumas together produced the
person I am now. I learned that somehow, in some way, even if at that moment
everything feels heavy and unrecoverable, it will pass. Everything passes. I just
have to tough it out and believe in myself that I can overcome it. By the end of
each one, no matter how scarring and hurting those are to me, they have
brought lessons and realizations that hones me to be a better version of
myself. A lot of things that I also learn in life comes from my observations. As I
am a person who likes my peace and comfort, I don’t have much going on in life
regarding the social aspect as I found that the more people I interact with, the
more possibilities of drama and conflict could happen. I just keep a close knit
of friends and stay casual with others. Social experiences are the things that I
learn from others. I learn vicariously from them. I read books and watch shows
and films where I live hundreds of lives and experiences through the
characters to know how different life could get for every person. I hear and
observe about other people’s problems, interactions, and the way they handle
them. From there I make my own judgement, if their approach is something I
agree with or not, these give me good ideas on how to act when similar things
will happen to me.
 Recently though, life has been hard to me. Some things that I saw people
are struggling with before are also happening to me and some issues that I
never thought would happen to me, happened. Even though I learned from
observing people what to do in these kind of situations, it still hits hard when
you’re the one in them. Now, if people were to ask me what I really want from
life, it would be peace, stability, and contentment. In this world that is full of
animosity, chaos, confusion, conflict, and negativities, I just crave for peace in
my life. Peace of heart, soul, and mind. Nothing feels better than having
serenity in yourself. As of this moment, I can’t say that I’m living life to the
fullest as I don’t have the privilege or means to do so. I am still bounded by
responsibilities, burdens, and problems, but I know in due time I would fully be
able to. For now though, I am making best of where I am right now, even if
sometimes it is hard, what matters mostly is that I try. Somewhere in the
future I trust that I eventually would be where God or fate wants me to be.
Everything that is meant for me will come to me at the end. Everything, in
time.